Feeling alone

"You are not alone. You are never alone."

I heard those words whispered to me as I was driving home from Basel, Switzerland. 

We live in Germany just over the border of Switzerland and France. My husband, Dale, had left a few weeks earlier to go to the states for seven weeks so that left me, my 17 year old daughter, Ashleigh, and our dog. I have always savored "alone" time. Being an introvert I don't mind silence. My energy tank is filled when I'm alone. But something was different ... 

Why was I having such a hard time being alone after Dale left for the states? 

I wasn't lonely, but I felt alone. I can't explain the feeling, but I was weepy at strange times during the day. I was spending more time in prayer so why was I feeling this way? 

On that particular day I was meeting a Swiss friend of ours just right over the border. He wanted to make sure Ashleigh and I were doing alright and he wanted to bless us with some money. It was needed and truly a blessing. Michael has been a friend of ours for about 9 years and he's more like family. We sat and had a coffee and talked for about an hour. As I was walking to the car, tears welled up in my eyes. I quickly brushed them away, said goodbye to Michael and got in my car. 

The flood that threatened to come in the parking lot now gave way on the highway to Germany. Sobs wracked my body until it felt like I would have to pull over. I didn't understand what was happening, but I knew it was necessary. About 2 km from home the tears stopped, a sweet peace came and I heard, "You are not alone. You are never alone." 

He knows what we need even when we think we don't have a need in a particular area. 

He knows how to reach us. 

He knows us. 

Each circumstance and situation is an opportunity to experience a deeper revelation of who His is and His love for us. 

I am overwhelmed by His love for me.