Ok. I am going to be honest here. I am in a low spot. Can I just tell you what the last month has been like for us?
Just before Christmas we had some issues with getting our Costa Rican driver's licenses, and to make a realllllly long story short, we had to road trip it to Panama. With sick kids. With a mama with mastitis. 4 days before Christmas.
Then it was Christmas. Our first one here. While I was being proactive this year and thought ahead to some things, with our last minute trip, I was scrambling to wrap and make and finish things. The actual day was good and we were able to spend time with some new friends, but it was still our first Christmas here, with all the emotion that goes with something like that.
Then camp started. Here's the thing about camp ministry, there are seasons that are very, very intense and then there are seasons that are easier. Well, right now, is a very, very intense season. January is our summer camp time (It's summer here, and coffee picking time, so no school!) My husband is leaving the house at 5:15 am and not getting home until at least 5:30 or 6, sometimes more like 10:00 or 10:30 pm. And we have one car. And no friends. And three little boys. So guess where I am all day, every day?
And then, two weeks ago, our puppy chewed on our laptop power supply and effectively rendered my computer useless. AHHHHHHH...my only connection to the outside. Oh, and there was no cable in all of Costa Rica (that we could find) that would work for our machine. Gracias a Dios (thanks be to God!) through several kind friends, we were able to get one from the States brought down last week.
I feel in a lot of ways we have hit up against the culture
several times over the last month, and it has left us a bit black and
blue. I am not trying to complain, but as I sat down today to write here, I felt so inadequate to share anything, because right now, we're not thriving. Frankly, we are working on just surviving here. Just getting through the day with everyone semi dressed, fed and moving forward.
I was reminded the other day how important it is to be honest in community. It doesn't do anybody any good to pretend that I've got it all together. I don't, as has been made painfully clear this last month. But when I can be honest with myself and with people around me, when I can be open about what I am dealing with, it lets the Body of Christ work. And really, that is a beautiful thing! We aren't meant to do life without each other. I need people to pray for me, to encourage me, to redirect my thinking back to the Truth. And in turn, I need to pray for others, to encourage others, to remind them of the Truth.
So now that you know my junk today, how about you? What has been the hardest thing for you in the last month, or last hour? What is your biggest hurdle right now living overseas? And how can we pray for you?
Oh, and thanks for letting me vent a little. I know you guys all understand culture stress here. It's good to be understood! Thanks!