My frantic question: Wouldn’t it be easier if you had stayed in the States? Isn’t this just too hard for you?
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His gentle answer: You are not called to a life of ease. What you are experiencing now is too hard for you to handle on your own; you can only handle it through My strength. You can’t do it by yourself. Lean on Me.
I couldn't do this new life in my own strength. In the States, most of the time, it was something I could handle pretty well (so I thought), on my own. It was bringing me here to Costa Rica that taught me how I truly dependent on God I really am. This is a lesson I have to repeat to myself just as often as this question attacks me, which, I have to admit, is often. But, God's answer is the same: "Lean on Me, Sarah."
Another frantic question: Wouldn't it be more strategic to be in a more "unreached" area?
My husband and I had been excited about missions for years, so we had done a lot of reading, attended conferences, took the Perspectives class, and spent a lot of time with missions-minded people as we prepared to leave. It was not lost on us that there was a huge push to get more workers among unreached and lesser reached people in parts of the world like East Asia and the Middle East. My own heart was drawn especially to people who had never previously heard the gospel or been exposed to Bible teaching. But, God through a series of events, led us to Latin America, and, at times, I found myself thinking that we weren't quite "real" missionaries because we weren't in one of those more strategic areas. So, when things were so hard, this little thought ballooned into one of my frantic questions, wondering if what we were going through was really worth it when weren't even doing work as important as others. (Can you hear the lies I was listening to here, ladies?)
His gentle answer: I've asked you to be a blessing where I have placed you, which is, for now, Costa Rica. Value this more than man's statistics, charts, terms, and opinions.
Those were just the words I needed to hear from Him to conquer these doubts and lies I was allowing to run so rampant in my head. What's really exciting about this is that letting go of these insecurities lead us to a place of recognizing a strategic need for ministry focused on maturing the Latin American church, who we believe are playing and will continue to play an increasingly important role in the growth of the Church worldwide. This understanding eventually lead us to a completely different role and ministry than we originally came to Costa Rica to do... and we are so thrilled to be part of it!
Please share what frantic questions you have struggled with about your role and place of ministry. What gentle answers has the Lord given you to these questions?
Come back tomorrow to chat with us about this, and then again on Wednesday for the final post in this series!